will i?

just spent a weekend with my friends, there a couple. i didnt realize how hard it can be to watch someone happy....how your blood can boil with jealousy. its not that you dont want them to be happy, because you do, you just wish you had there happiness too. sometimes its harder to deal with then others, because the person your in love isnt in love with you...or so you think.

sometime i seem him and i wish he was here, in my arms, me in his, holding him, holding me. to feel his heartbeat...and hear his breath...and smell his scent...and know for sure that as long as i have him in my life it will all be alright....

but it isnt that easy...god how i wish it were, we're both young...we both have plans.....we both have things we wouldn like to do before we settle down...but will he wait for me.....me for him....or as time goes by, and the more we try and achive our individual goals, will we drift apart...no longer along the same path. i hope not.

i want him there with me, helipng me achive my goals, me helping him....i wanna see his face light up when his accomplished his goal...i want to share the highs and lows with him....

the only question here is....will i?